Relatively recently, I began to realise that ‘healing’ is something that comes in many forms. We, as humans, are all healers, and all born with the ability to heal. From the very first moment we arrive on the planet, our bodies heal and renew themselves every day. Beyond that, most people desire to help others in any way that they can, and that is also a kind of healing. Animals help each other, and humans, to heal without expecting anything in return, and without even consciously deciding to do it. They are simply being themselves, and coming from a place of pure unconditional love. They are in flow.

For some time, I labelled myself as a ‘healer’. Interestingly, during the past year, the label began to peel away and I began to wonder who I was underneath it all. I realised that I had built up yet another identity on which to base my worth, which was actually quite a difficult realisation to integrate. I’ve noticed that any time I attach my worth to something outside of myself, pain or fear arises when that thing is taken away or naturally passes by. Any time we put a label on ourselves or ‘put ourselves in a box’, there is a chance that it could change or be taken away. And then, what are we left with? Generally, we begin a process of discovering (and uncovering) our true selves all over again.

After I completed my Completion Process training in 2016, there was a real pull to start up a spiritual business of some kind, helping people to heal and integrate parts of themselves. A huge wave was taking shape and was propelling a lot of people into online healing and coaching businesses. I’d been building an online presence for a few years before the training, and I’d already been making YouTube videos for seven years. At the time, ‘getting myself out there’ and sharing the newfound healing modalities that came to me through a channelled experience felt good, and it felt authentic. I was in alignment. Synchronicities popped up everywhere, and I met the right people at the right time, as is the way with these things. And then, as we can always rely on in our lives – things changed.


As I mentioned in my last blog, I burned out emotionally, mentally and physically in 2018, and had to stop doing healing work of any kind. Although, I didn’t really stop ‘healing’ at all. My energy needed to be focused inwards, and lots of self-healing occurred. And I helped friends and family in little ways, such as listening and sharing a little wisdom here and there. I did, however, stop healing as a ‘business’. Interestingly, earlier on in the year, I had received an insight that I wasn’t meant to have a healing or energy work business at this time in my life. I wasn’t meant to be giving tarot and oracle card readings either. And that’s not to say that I didn’t enjoy doing those things, because they were a huge passion of mine, it’s just that the time and energy for that had run its course. However, I didn’t listen to my intuition, because I had spent such a long time building up my business and putting myself ‘out there’. I’d spent hours creating my website, learned about online marketing and become self-employed. How could I possibly just take everything apart and let it go?

I’ve realised that when something has run its course, it’s best to let it go very soon after the intuition or inkling arises. When the flow of the river has shifted elsewhere, it doesn’t feel good to try to sail or float along a dried up riverbed. In fact, as you can imagine, it doesn’t work. I’ve also realised that the reason I held on for so long is that I had spent so long ‘building a name for myself’. And I think that says it all, really. I’ll be the first to admit that there was a certain level of ‘ego payoff’ for the work that I was doing. Although, I want to make it clear, both to myself and you as a reader, that I had my heart in the right place – I wanted to help others. And I still do. Only now it seems as though it will be in a different format – a format that I’m yet to discover, although little intuitive nudges are appearing here and there, and have been for some time. And, of course, writing these blogs is a way to share and help others, whilst enjoying the natural flow of my talent for writing. Something that I’ve always enjoyed doing, and that comes to me easily. Generally, things are far more simple than we expect them to be.

I’ve realised that when something has run its course, it’s best to let it go very soon after the intuition or inkling arises. When the flow of the river has shifted elsewhere, it doesn’t feel good to try to sail or float along a dried up riverbed. In fact, as you can imagine, it doesn’t work. I’ve also realised that the reason I held on for so long is that I had spent so long ‘building a name for myself’. And I think that says it all, really. I’ll be the first to admit that there was a certain level of ‘ego payoff’ for the work that I was doing. Although, I want to make it clear, both to myself and you as a reader, that I had my heart in the right place – I wanted to help others. And I still do. Only now it seems as though it will be in a different format – a format that I’m yet to discover, although little intuitive nudges are appearing here and there, and have been for some time. And, of course, writing these blogs is a way to share and help others, whilst enjoying the natural flow of my talent for writing. Something that I’ve always enjoyed doing, and that comes to me easily. Generally, things are far more simple than we expect them to be.

Recently I’ve been meeting and observing people who have built a life around their creative passion. They don’t label themselves as a ‘healer’, yet they heal by bringing a great deal of joy to people’s lives. They touch lives by being their true self, and by doing the things that they love to do. I’ve felt a real admiration for these people lately, and it’s made a big difference to the way that I see the world. Watching someone who is in their element, doing the things that they love and are passionate about, is incredibly inspiring. It brings a smile to my face whenever I see them ‘in action’, because there’s a strong sense of passion that flows from them. It’s a real joy to watch.

What if the things that we can do so easily, and that seem to just flow from us – the things that we love to do – are the gifts that we came to share with the world?

And, what if those things are the tools with which we bring our own healing abilities into the world? Therefore, helping ourselves and others at the same time.

What if flowing with the river, and letting ourselves be guided on what to do next is the easiest and most fulfilling way to live? Wouldn’t that make life so much more enjoyable!

A smile to a stranger, a kind word to a friend, an expression of gratitude or a compliment to someone who touches our lives. Picking up a worm from the pavement and putting it on the soil. Feeding the birds and watering the plants in your garden. Donating clothes or unwanted items to a charity shop. Picking up litter and putting it in the bin. All of these are acts of healing. Even writing this blog is an act of healing, because it could touch the lives of others.

Through my experiences over the past year, I’ve noticed and realised that we cannot heal through, or from, a place of ego. We always heal through love. Loving thoughts, loving words, loving actions. Some people may choose to become healers in the sense that they actively use healing energy through a kind of modality, and that’s really very beautiful when in alignment with their soul expression and purpose on the planet.

Healing will always be a part of my life, whether I choose to practice as an energy healer again or not. Whichever kind of work I choose do in the world, I will bring healing energy with me. Because, as I’ve realised, it is a part of who I am. I’m curious to see how this will unfold in a ‘practical’ way in the future, but, for now, I’m happy to just let it be as it is.